We’ve finished our first month in the trailer! Included in that was a vacation to our Nation’s Capital, Washington, D.C. It was a wonderful trip and we had been wanting to take the girls for a long time. It was definitely this radical change to our lifestyle that ultimately made it possible. I will cherish the memories that we made on this trip. It was one of our best vacations ever!
It’s really funny how many things you don’t consider when you move to a smaller space. As I started packing up things in our bathroom back in May I found so many bath items! Soaps, shampoos, lotions, body washes, band aid… Some were from hotels or giveaway samples. Some were clearance sale items from whatever semi-annual sale I attended last. Plus I apparently have a thing for Star Wars band aids. I even found a few things that were duplicates because I would forget I had something, or couldn’t find it when I needed it. (this same thing happened in the kitchen, by the way. Black beans and salt, anyone???) Not that there is anything wrong with having a backup soap or deodorant, but no one really needs 3 industrial size bottles of aloe lotion.
At one point I made a decision. I would pack all of that up and bring it into the trailer with me. No soap left behind! And I would USE. IT. UP. No buying an item if I already had something identical or even similar. Now, in this tiny camper bathroom that hauntingly reminds me of an airplane bathroom with an added shower, I have 2 regular house bathrooms full of health and beauty overflow. It’s crowded in there. And it is overwhelmingly obvious that I had too much stuff in my bathrooms. The funny thing is, that I had an entire cabinet in the girls’ bathroom that was empty and I thought I was doing pretty well!
So far in this month I have finished up a bottle of body wash and I’m almost done with another, emptied a sunscreen bottle, a shampoo bottle, a tube of toothpaste, and a few bandaids. I’ve only had to purchase one toothbrush and some deodorant for Nick. I’ve put a few things in my shopping cart and then snapped back to reality and put it on the shelf. Saying no is hard. Sometimes you have to learn to say no in the little purchases.
I am constantly hit with the realization that I have so much more than I really need. And sometimes I find myself craving more. It’s ridiculous the lack of contentment that I find myself in at times. Totally contrary to what the Lord has called us to.
In Philippians 4:11-13 (NLT) Paul talks about contentment –
“Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.”
Can I be content with living in a camper? Right now, yes. What about tomorrow when I am introverting hardcore? What about when my kids are fighting and have no place to separate, or when Nick isn’t feeling well and doesn’t have a quiet place to retreat?
Can I be content when things don’t turn out the way I thought they should? When life isn’t going according to my carefully laid plans? Am I content then, or do I become a ball of mush in the corner that is pretty much useless to everyone?
Sometimes it comes down to deciding you want to be content. Going through life constantly consuming and never satisfied like some sort of zombie doesn’t really sound all that fulfilling. I want to be full. I want to be content no matter what situation I’m in. Whether I’m living in this camper or living in a house.
Either way, it’s home.